Peter Gabriel

It's been a year again. A good ritual to start I think. 
Terrible things have happened, Dom is gone. 
Can't even let it sink in. He was truly the pillar of strength for everyone. Everything is terrible now. 
Oddly, I dont feel sad, and I feel bad for not being sad. But with him it was always happy, maybe that's why it seems okay. It must be what he would have wanted. Doesn't feel like he's gone, but he really is. Superflydom, everyone misses you. You have no idea.

So let me tell you what you've missed.
I've got better grades this year. Pass with Commendation and a 3.o-something GPA
I'm applying to universities overseas. Lets see what happens.
I highlighted my hair green and blue. I like that.
We had a big revelation that _ _ _'s household is definitely the making of a cult.
I'm working for a social media MARKETING agency. And I hate Marketing. And I hate working. But well money rules all.
I still can't decide between NZ or UK. because while Zoology  trumps English Lit, UK definitely trumps NZ. 
But a writer or a zoologist?
Big questions are happening right now.

It been a whole year since I wrote on this red page.
I miss it incredibly. Maybe an entire year was exactly what I needed.
I abandoned you for a much better site. A site that made me belong(cliche)but it did. It was a site that connected the same people from all over the world. In that site you found your soulmates of both genders. That site allowed you to be completely insane with even more insane people.
But you, you I like. You contain my sanity. Sometimes you are what I need.

Its been a long time since I thought about becoming a cold-hearted bitch.
That time has come.

Oh i wish i could just take you away and keep you in the safety of my cupboard.
I dont know what i should do.
I'm not going to ask you to run away.
But maybe you know emancipation isnt so bad.
We could just take care of each other forever.
They never have to know.
I need you too Rachaela, if you leave.
I might become mentally disoriented.

I Know of whats wrong.
I Tried to fix it. Tried to want less.
Life tried to live up to 'too much'.
Too much in people.
Want too much in relationships.
And I think the Teevee must take blame.
For if walking down a gr e y road takes me places.
then take me down a gr a y road.
For grey skies await,
right down to earlimart.

Shadows looking for the right people.

Milo left us quite a while back.
I guess once you experience death you tend not to give your love so freely.
It gets harder each time.

Days like these have been missed.
You miss someone so much, you try to do your best with that day.
You do everything the same as it was before.
It works. Makes us feel like nothings' changed.
Even the silence doesnt matter.

Art therapy.
I believe.